Interview With American Author Maha Sabur

It is my pleasure to present to you Maha Sabur, author of “My Precious Children, My Plight, My Life, My Story” which can be purchased online at Publish America (ISBN#:1-60441-639-4). Maha is pictured at left with her current husband. She not only graciously agreed to be interviewed, but went out of her way to answer the questions in detail to give FHWS the best information and benefits from her personal experience. Here is a brief background on Maha: “My name is Maha Sabur (Given name is Deborah Knight); I’m a Caucasian American Muslim. I was seventeen when I converted to Islam, and married my first husband, a Saudi Arabian man in 1980. I moved to Saudi Arabia when I was nineteen, and lived there for appropriately eighteen years. I basically lived in Saudi Arabia as a Saudi, even learned to speak Arabic. I gave birth to six children with my Saudi Arabian husband. The oldest child is a boy, and he has five little sisters. I obtained an Islamic divorce from my Saudi Arabian husband five years ago. I have been back in the states for approximately eleven years, staying in contact with my children.” My heartfelt appreciation to Maha for her time and efforts. May Allah make her book a success ameen. Tara Umm Omar

1. What is your nationality? My husband and I are born Americans. Our parents also were born and raised here in the United States. My husband was born into a merchant farmer family in Mississippi; in the days segregation was being enforced.  My mother and father were born and raised in South Carolina.  A state known in the past to have prejudice ideals, which makes our union as husband and wife that much more extraordinary!

2. What is your job in your country of residence? I am first a Muslimah, and a loving wife to my loving husband! Then, I guess you would also call me an Author, because I have written a book about the story of my life. Allah allowed me to experience much in my lifetime; it was all in His plan. He knew, the day would come, and I would be writing this book, trying to inform people about the beautiful religion of Islam. Islam promotes a healthy life style most befitting mankind to live in peace and harmony. It is not a religion with terrorist ideas.

Just so you are aware, as of now I am working on getting my book revised. The book has gotten much praise as it was initially published. However, I am not a writer, and people who happen to be well versed in the English language notice the mistakes. I simply had a story to tell, and I did so in the best way I knew how.  However, since the book has been published, I have spent much time developing my writing skills, and now I notice many mistakes. The book will probably take a few months, before the revision is complete.

3.  How long did you live in Saudi Arabia? I lived in Saudi Arabia for  approximately thirteen years, give or take a few. I can’t be precise, because I traveled back and forth toward the end of my marriage. However, I was in Saudi Arabia, with my children most of the time until 1997, I think the year is correct. I had an Islamic marriage in 1980; I wasn’t divorced legally in the eyes of God in 2003, not long after a major car accident in the Sacramento, California, where I came very close to loosing my life. However, God saw, it wasn’t my time to go yet. I still had more to do in this world.  For this, I can’t thank Him enough


4.  List some pros and cons about living in Saudi Arabia.  I simply think, anyone who may be struggling with the idea of spending the rest of his or her life in Saudi Arabia, needs to understand living in Saudi Arabia, is like living in a different world! It is so hard for anyone to realize what Saudi Arabia is really like, until they have the opportunity to experience this living, first hand. Of course, if a person is Muslim and lives according to the laws set by God, it is much easier.

I was fortunate enough to live in Mecca when I first moved Saudi Arabia. Our house was within walking distance to the Haram (House of God built by Abraham and its surrounding area). Of course, I was never required to walk to the Haram, because the Saudi government meticulously structured traffic in Mecca, to adapt to the growing population.

Saudi Arabia is the so-called Cradle of Islam; therefore it is a wonderful place for a Muslim to live.  Although, Saudi Arabia is ideal for Muslim’s, a woman should think twice about living there. I say this, because women who like the convenience of moving around by themselves, and doing things for themselves, are not allowed this luxury. Women are not allowed to drive in Saudi Arabia, which can be a major hindrance when driving is something they enjoy. I would like to add, this is not a practice in Islam.  To make it difficult for a woman to move about freely, is not in accordance with Islam. Many stories and sayings of the Prophet Mohammad, tell us about women who lived their lives as devout Muslimahs, and were very outgoing and courageous women. It is merely the government’s way, of trying to adapt to rapidly changing times. I don’t believe women should be unable to do anything men do, as long as it conforms to Allah’s commands. Women, need only to be careful how they dress, while accomplishing the task at hand. Hijab is not merely a head covering dress, but more importantly, it is behavior, manners, speech and appearance in public, so men must comply with Hijab also.  Women, according to the commands of God, are required to cover more of their bodies, because in general men, have a different psychological makeup than women. It is a known fact, men in general are aroused by site, and women by feeling. The idea is not to dress, act, or talk, in a way that would sexually arouse the opposite sex. Islam encourages a structured family life, which enables mankind to flourish!

For example my husband and I exercise at the same gym, but we don’t necessarily go at the same time, because we trust each other. We know the other person is God fearing, so their manners will thus indicate. I wear a comfortable, loose, long sleeve tee shirt, loose sweatpants and comfortable head cover, not revealing or flashy. This manner of dress allows me the opportunity to exercise comfortably.

My sincere advice to a woman wishing to live her life in Saudi Arabia, is to acquaint herself in every way possible about the lifestyle of that country. I would advise any person wanting to relocate to a different country, they learn much about that country, including the language. If a person is able to speak even a few words, the people of that particular country understand; they show a willingness to adapt. People in general can be very understanding and helpful, especially when they see your making an effort.

5.  When and where did you meet your Saudi ex-husband? I met my Saudi ex-husband in Sacramento California, where he was attending Sacramento State University. My ex-husband and I met, at the exact time and place God planned.  When I met my ex husband, I had not yet accepted Islam, and was in the days of ignorance. Therefore, I was behaving in a way displeasing to God. Little did I know, God had bigger plans for me! I give exact details in my story, of how we met on that evening.

6. Did his family accept his marriage to you? Why/Why not? I was fortunate enough, to have the opportunity of meeting his oldest brother, when he came to study for an aviation course in Kansas City, Missouri. His older brother is a captain, and flew for the royal fleet, meaning he flew the royal family wherever they wanted to go in the world. He is a very nice man, who had been acting as head of the family, since his father passed.  We married soon after I met his oldest brother, who gave his blessing.

Actually, several months passed after our marriage, before he actually let his mother know, he was in fact married to an American, when he traveled home on vacation. Her son marrying an American, was something she had always expressed negative feelings about, and my ex husband always told me, if his mother did not agree to our marriage, he would be forced to divorce me. A quality in my new adopted faith I admire, is how a man’s mother is held with the utmost regard. After God, she is the ruling factor in his life. However, when his mother discovered we were already married for several months, she gave her blessing along with his aunts.

7. Did your family accept your marriage to him? Why/Why not? I am close with my mother, and am able to talk to her. As long as my mother saw her children living a good, wholesome life, and they were happy, so was she. She did not interfere unnecessarily in our lives. When she felt any of her children needed any advice, she was always present to help in any way she was able; physically, by helping us get over an illness or something of that nature. Also mentally, she helped us by giving her children, which sometime was badly needed advise! Unfortunately, I never shared the same relationship with my father. My father, only felt the need to step in, when anything got out of control, and we needed to be disciplined. Although, I have many fun childhood memories of my father, which I speak about in my story, but the majority of the story is about my life in Saudi Arabia.

8. How did you/your ex-husband overcome the resistance to your marriage? When I met my ex husband, previously he lived outside Saudi Arabia for ten years, so he was already accustomed to the ways of foreigners, and non-Muslims.  Before coming to study in the United States, he studied in England for two years.  As I recall, once we got around the problem of telling his mother about our marriage, it was all smooth sailing, until I arrived in Saudi Arabia that is.

9. How was your relations with your family/in-laws after divorcing your Saudi ex-husband? Our families tried to assist in anyway they could, when we were going through our separation, because we had good relations with our in-laws. Our families were never known to point a finger and say, “I told you so”, or something of that nature. They were very supportive, and did there best to lend a helping hand whenever needed. However, my ex husband’s mother died, after I married my current husband,(may God have mercy on her soul, and grant her paradise). She was very instrumental in my learning the Arabic language, and in my Islamic education.   
10. What is your advice when a non-Saudi woman meets her potential/future Saudi in-laws? My advice to a woman wanting to live in peace and harmony with her Saudi in-laws, is the same advice I would give to anyone wanting to live comfortably, with someone they are not accustomed to, and are from a different culture. I believe this world would be a lot nicer, if before people would think, before they react badly, or harshly to a situation.  They need to turn the tables around, and put themselves in the other persons shoes. This non-Saudi woman, should understand how her potential/future in-laws are feeling about her, and put their feelings before her own. She shouldn’t be thinking only of herself.

When my husband wants me to see his side of a situation, he tells me to put myself in his place, and with my very vivid imagination, that is not hard. After putting myself in his place, the situation suddenly looks very different, which causes me to react in a more harmonious way.

11. Did you like living in Saudi Arabia? Please explain why you did or didn’t like living in Saudi Arabia.  I had a difficult time living in Saudi Arabia, because I was a person, use to doing things for themselves. If I needed something from the store, I simply took myself to the store and got, whatever it was I needed. I didn’t like waiting around, for a man to feel whatever I needed, was important enough to him to get. On the other hand, Mecca and the house of God are located in Saudi Arabia. Not to mention, I was able to see the good in Saudis. Of course there is good and bad everywhere you go in this world, and depending on what kind of life you choose to live, will determine your status. If people would only learn to lead by example, and be aware they will pay the consequences for their actions! Also, when I went to Saudi Arabia to visit my children a year ago, I noticed Saudi Arabia, like everywhere else in the world today, is rapidly changing with the times. I believe it is only a matter of time, before the Saudi woman will be driving! (Only God knows)


12. What would you like to see improved in Saudi Arabia?  I firmly believe some of the Saudis today, tend to be a bit arrogant. Mind you, I said some of the Saudis. There are also many, who are very good-natured people, and always put others before themselves. I find this Ironic, because arrogance is looked down upon in Islam. Perhaps these Saudis feel they are the chosen people! I sincerely believe, they should learn to humble themselves!

I am not particularly happy with the way women can be confined in Saudi Arabia, and they are unable to drive.  I know in my heart, God allowed Saudi Arabia to be this way for a reason, because God has a reason for everything He does! Saudi Arabia is home to Mecca, and the Haram (house of God built by Abraham), which brings to mind verses from the Qur’an; 106:3-4 Let them adore the Lord of this house, who provides them with food against hunger, and with security against fear (of danger).  

Saudi Arabia is home to Mecca, so I believe it goes without saying, Saudi Arabia has a special place where God is concerned. By the will of God, Saudi Arabia holds a very high status, compared to other countries in the world. It has the lowest crime rate, if not the lowest, then one of the lowest. The fact is, all the undesirable traits man demonstrates in life, are not visible in the Saudi Arabian lifestyle, such as; drugs, teenage pregnancy and many others. Therefore, I would never dare make an effort to try and change, the lifestyle in Saudi Arabia, for fear I may bring upon myself the displeasure of Allah.

13. Do you think a non-Saudi woman should change anything about herself to fit into a Saudi society? The emphasis on change should be when a person enters Islam, not upon relocating to Saudi Arabia. God tells us in the Qur’an “Did you think you would except Islam, and not be tested?” Upon accepting Islam, a person should expect God will test them! When people become Muslim, and with conviction recite “La illaha ilallah” (There is no God except Allah) and “Muhammad arRasulillah” (Muhammad is the Prophet of Allah), swearing allegiance to the Prophet, to obey him and follow his teachings, that is when change should come into their lives. I have seen many who accept Islam, and make no change in their lifestyle.  Allah also tells us in the Qur’an “Why do you say, that which you do not do” When anyone accepts Islam, they need to make a conscious effort to change their lives. The more God conscious a person is, they begin to notice God’s presents throughout their daily lives. They should always be aware, any good or bad that happens to them in their life, is from God. God allows bad in our lives, to teach us, which is where the expression “Learn from your mistakes” come from, or bad happening in our lives, could be expiation for sins accumulated. “What goes around, comes around”

That being said, to answer the question, yes it is compulsory she change some, anyway. InshaAllah she is able to move directly into her own house.  However, many women in the same situation, are required to stay with in-laws for a while, until finances allow.  If this is the case, she will be living in their house, therefore required to live by their rules, so change will be necessary. Therefore, she should do as I previously suggested, try putting herself in their position!

InshaAllah (God willing) her Saudi husband is an understanding person, and will help her through any problems that may arise. I fully understand, it depends on this person’s ability to adjust to change, whether or not they are able to adapt the Saudi lifestyle comfortably. I have some American friends with Saudi Husbands, who have lived for many years in Saudi Arabia, and are very happy and content. Saudi Arabia is home to them, and they wouldn’t want to live anywhere else.

14. What do you think about the abaya, and was it a problem for you to wear it? I didn’t find wearing the abaya difficult at all, because everyone else was wearing the same. Even there were some women who didn’t wear it, but they were accustomed to seeing it, so I wasn’t stared at. I recall, many times I found wearing the abaya convenient.  Mainly whenever, I needed to go somewhere quickly; I was able to throw it over my pajamas, and nobody knew the difference!

As for the abaya being too hot to wear in Saudi Arabia, the heat will require getting use to.  I won’t sugar-coat anything.  I don’t know of anyone, who is able to stand the heat of the sun in that country, beating down on bare skin.  They will discover, dressing in what they may think to be cool clothes, isn’t going to make a difference. Hot is hot! Although, I believe I did discover the reason why the abaya is black in color, and not a cooler light color. The lighter color face covers reflect the sun, which at times, can literally blind you, and so as to match the face cover with the abaya, evolved to the color black as well. Of course, this is only my theory.

In Qur’an 24:31 Allah says: “And say to the believing women that they should lower their gaze and guard their modesty, that they should not display their beauty and ornaments except what (must ordinarily) appear there of: that they should draw their veils over their bosom and not display their beauty except to their husbands, their fathers, their husbands fathers…

My interpretation of what must ordinarily appear thereof, changes from place to place. Please take note, this is only my interpretation, and the way I understand this verse. Wherever she may be in the world, if she wants to avoid standing out, and drawing attention to her self, wardrobe and actions change from culture to culture.  May God forgive me if my interpretation is wrong!

15. Was your Saudi ex-husband ever involved in helping to raise your children? As I often explained to people, after having six children; I could probably count the number of times my ex-husband actually changed a diaper, on one hand! He thought his role of fatherhood, began after the child was potty trained, and able to accompany him places. Unfortunately, he didn’t help with his children in there early years. I guess you might say, “He did not do newborns”. However, he did play an active role in their lives, when they reached the toddler stage, more my son, than my daughters. My ex-husbands excuse for this way of thinking, was always, because the boy needs to learn the man’s role in the family, from his father, and the girls need to learn the woman’s role, from their mother.  This was a major problem to me, because I had five girls, and only one boy! I’m aware, I got the short end of that stick! Although, I believe it goes without saying, everybody is different. There are some men, who are there with their wives, helping them through their pregnancy, doing whatever they can to help in delivery, and play an active part in the child’s life, right from the very beginning! Therefore, they should not judge their own husband, by my ex-husbands standards. I would also like to add, this is not an Islamic practice. There are many stories, describing the Prophet Muhammad peace be upon him (pbuh), helping around the house, and sewing his own clothes, etc….

(Taken from “The Way of Muhammad”, by Shaykh Abdal Qadir as-Sufi). His name means the Praise Worthy. Muhammad was forbearing, honest, just and chaste. His hand never touched the hand of a woman, over whom he did not have rights.  He was the most generous of men. He was never asked for anything, but gave it to the one who asked. He would prefer the seeker, to himself and his family, and so often his store of grain for the year, was used up before the year finished.  He patched his sandals and clothing, did household chores, and ate with his woman folk.  He was shy and would not stare into people’s faces.  He answered the invitation of the slaves and the free born, and he accepted presents, even if they consisted of merely a draught of milk, while because of hunger, he would at times tie two stones around his stomach.

16. Did your Saudi ex-husband help you with the household chores? Unfortunately, his way of thinking was, any work inside the house was belonged to women, and any work outside the house was the man’s. This idea even held true with the children, if the kids were inside the house, they were my responsibility. However, like I said before, Islam doesn’t condone this behavior. The best example for mankind to follow, is the Prophet Muhammad, and there are many stories about him actively helping his wives with the house hold chores.

17. What do you think non-Saudis should know about Saudi women? After 9,11 I heard many stories, about how Saudi Arabians dislike America, and Americans. I heard in Saudi Arabians, teach their children in school to hate America. I would get very infuriated, because I knew first hand, this was definitely not the case! No matter where I was in Saudi Arabia, I always felt special, because the people make you feel special. If I attended a dinner, and the other guests discovered there was an American woman present, they wanted to sit and talk with me. Everywhere I went, I was treated with kindness.

However, I would like to share with you something I believe is extremely important.  Your actions must not seem very strange, and different than what Saudi Arabians are use to. If you retain all your American habits, and do not change, at least in the presents of Saudis, you will find it very difficult to fit in with them. In your home, around your family, you can act as you are accustomed, but when you are in the company of Saudis, it helps to make an effort to fit in. Like I said before, if people at least see you making an effort to fit in to their lifestyle, you would be amazed to see the helpful response you receive from many.

God tell us in the Qur’an: 49:13 O mankind! We created you from a single (pair) of male and a female, and made you into Nations and tribes, that ye may know each other (not that ye may despise (each other).  Verily the most honored of you in the sight of Allah is (he who is) the most righteous of you and Allah has full knowledge and is well acquainted (with all things).

If you go to Saudi Arabia, stick to small American communities over there, and only associate with other Americans, who live and work in Saudi Arabia called Expats, or only American women who have Saudi Husbands; you are going to seem unapproachable to them. You must try to fit in, talk with them, and make friends with other Saudi women, if you are a woman, and make friends with Saudi men, if you are a man.  One of the first habits you will notice in Saudi Arabia, is how men and women do not associate with each other! If you make a conscious effort to adjust to the Saudi lifestyle, you would be surprised to meet some wonderful, and sweet human beings! The same holds true with all people, not just Saudis, if opportunity allows people should reach out and talk, acquaint themselves with others!


18. Did you feel trapped in Saudi Arabia or do you feel more comfortable living here? Wow, that is a very important question, the union of a Saudi man and an American woman, can be very difficult!  Her willingness to adapt to the Saudi Arabian lifestyle, is very important!  If she neglects to do so, or refuses, in my opinion, she would find living there very stressful.

Did I feel trapped in Saudi Arabia? I would be forced to reply in the affirmative. I was not trapped physically; I was able to leave any time I wanted to go. However, I wanted my children to live their impressionable years in an Islamic society. I wanted them to live within a safe, secure country, away from the harmful traits many Americans exhibit in today’s society, such as drugs and teen pregnancy.  Therefore, I took a good hard look at myself, and I didn’t like what I saw.  I didn’t feel my faith was strong enough, and I felt I would not be able to give my children a good Islamic upbringing. Therefore, I was forced to live in Saudi Arabia, because my children needed me. Not to mention, I did not have the means to support them as they were accustomed, and they would undoubtedly miss their father.

It doesn’t matter where you live in this world, if you have true faith and fear of God, your able to live a productive, and harmonious life.

Qur’an:  91:7-10 By the soul, and the proportion and order given to it:  And its enlightenment as to its wrong and its right –Truly he succeeds that purifies it, and he fails that corrupts it! 
19. Do you think a non-Saudi can be happy in Saudi Arabia? Of course a non-Saudi can be happy living in Saudi Arabia.  It is Allah Who places the happiness within someone’s heart.  As long as he or she lives a good life, and obeys Allah’s commands, He blesses us and allows us.  Whereever we are in this world, we can find happiness.

As God tells us in the Qur’an: 92:5-10 So he who gives (In charity) and fears (Allah), and (in all sincerity) testifies to the best- We will indeed make smooth for him the path to bliss.  But he who is a greedy miser and thinks himself self-sufficient, and gives the lie to the best—We will indeed make smooth for him the path to misery:

20. Do you think you would be willing/able to live in Saudi Arabia alone? Why/Why not?  I would not wish to live by myself in Saudi Arabia or anywhere else for that matter, simply because I do not like being alone, I am a “people person”.  However, I have seen women who did live with other women, without a man present.  These women were from other countries, and worked in Saudi Arabian hospitals, or elsewhere.  They had no restrictions while performing their daily activities.  Although, I am really not sure, why they chose to live together. If it was a Saudi requisition, or to help with finances.  I know housing in Saudi Arabia is expensive.

Family life in Saudi Arabia, is very different from what Americans are accustomed.  In America as well as many other countries in the world today, when a child becomes eighteen, suddenly by law, they are known as an “Adults”. Afterwards, everything they do, they do as an adult.  They separate from their mother and father, and begin living a life of their own, with a home of their own, and are expected to financially take care of themselves.  God willing their parents have done their job, and prepared them for this separation.  When young adults are allowed to live on their own, and in many cases encouraged; if they have no fear of God, they contribute to many problems.  Parents should determine, whether or not a young adult is capable of living on their own.  Many children are not getting the proper love and attention even when the parents are present. Of course, I am aware there are many very good parents also, but it is laws placed by the government, which allow the society as a whole to be dysfunctional.

You will never see these conditions in Saudi Arabia. In Saudi Arabia they “look after own”, so to speak.  You will not find nursing homes or anything even similar, to care for the elderly, unless they need medical attention, in Saudi Arabia.  When a person reaches old age, a close family member cares for them. Men and women usually will not leave the family home, unless to educate themselves.  However, if the woman attends University in another city, she usually stays with relatives or lives on campus.  A man will rarely have his own home while attending college or University in another city, if relatives are available. I have known a Saudi woman with a Saudi scholarship, attending the University in Sacramento, California. Although, her brother was also attending the same University.  I cannot say for certain, Saudis have laws in place concerning the living conditions of women in particular.  I can only say what I know, and have seen.  I do know all women living without men in their lives, are able to go wherever needed.  They are just unable to drive, but they do have public transportation.  However, many women use taxis.


21.  Do you think a non-Saudi woman would have any problems living alone in Saudi Arabia?  I think that would depend on her situation, and her reason for wanting to live by herself, also if she is a Saudi Citizen or not.  Since I really do not know the laws in Saudi Arabia regarding this situation, it would be hard for me to answer accurately.  I would like to add Saudi Arabia is a closed country.  Anyone residing there, must have a reason.  Not just anyone, can live in Saudi Arabia, simply because that is where he or she wishes to live, unless they have Saudi citizenship.  However, from the full extent of my knowledge, I believe if she had a legitimate reason for living in Saudi Arabia by herself; she would be allowed.

22. What advice would you give a non-Saudi considering marriage to a Saudi? If this non-Saudi woman decides to marry a Saudi man, she must not be wavering in her decision, or have any doubt in her mind. Everyone must face the consequences, of the choices they make in this life. Therefore, if she intends to get married to this Saudi man, she must be certain, because usually there is no turning back.

Also, does her soon to be husband have the Saudi governments permission to marry a foreigner.  If he does not, many problems could arise.  The first of these problems, most probably being her initial entry into Saudi Arabia, and her health care after she arrives.  Not to mention, the children’s health care, if children are involved.  I sincerely believe, the best way to handle this situation, is for her soon to be Saudi husband to proceed to Saudi Arabia before her, and prepare for her arrival.  Many difficulties can be avoided, by this initial preparation!

I have answered these questions truthfully to the best of my ability, and I pray with all of my heart, the information I provided in this interview will help any couple in this situation, to happily live, in peace and harmony!

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Second Interview

 

AN INTERVIEW WITH MAHA SABUR BY TARA UMM OMAR
  Should You Revert To Islam To Please Your Saudi Husband Or Because You Believe In It?

 

You may remember Maha Sabur from a previous FHWS post in which I introduced her book,My Precious Children, My Plight, My Life, My Story. In this post, she tells us another side to her story, about her conversion to Islam and subsequent loss of identity.

 

Thanks to Maha for sharing this part of her life with us. You may also want to listen to her interview on Blog Talk Radio.

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If you are a non-Muslim woman wanting to marry a Saudi, you should learn about Islam, because Islam, inshaAllah, would be his way of life.  Be aware the most accurate information about Islam, will come from asking other Muslims.  If you convert to Islam then you could be more compatible with your Saudi husband, and insha’Allah have one less culture clash. This doesn’t guarantee having no religious conflicts, but at least your children will be raised upon the faith of both parents, and have no confusion. 

 

Your Saudi husband should be patient and gentle in his explanations, after all, a bee is attracted to honey, not vinegar. I have noticed, some Muslims have the correct understanding of Islam, but don’t tell others, and help Islam spread, or they may not know how to speak to others about Islam.  I believe the best form of da’wa is to lead by example. Many people are drawn to Islam, seeing the good actions of others, rather than by speech. Keep in mind, that no one is perfect, so don’t set your expectations of him too high, and set yourself up for a disappointment.

 

Islam was never forced on me, I just accepted Islam for all the wrong reasons. I never want to pass the blame on anybody else.  Everybody will have to pay the consequences for the choices they make in life, as I have paid the consequences for my choices, but they were my choices. It is important a non-Muslim woman convert to Islam to please Allah, not their spouse.

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I was born Deborah Knight in the state of Michigan, USA. I am forty-seven, and have been Muslim for 30 years. When I obtained the age of seventeen I drove to Stockton from Sacramento with a Saudi man I was involved with, accepted Islam and got married at the same time, in the Islamic Center in Stockton, California. This man previously, very clear told me, he would never marry a non-Muslim woman, because he didn’t want his children growing up with any confusion in their lives. Therefore, I knew, if I didn’t except Islam, he wouldn’t marry me. So I want to remember, emphasis was on us getting married, rather than where it should have been; accepting Islam for the sake of God.

My ex-husband introduced me to Islam. I accepted Islam, got married, and changed my name all at the same time. I suddenly wasn’t Deborah anymore, I was Maha. My Saudi Arabian husband, who is now my ex-husband, was persistently encouraging me to wear Islamic clothing, and to cover my face. He wanted me to appear as an Arab woman, so he encouraged the use of the Arabic Arabic language. Of course, all of this is great because the obligatory prayers should be prayed in Arabic. Not to mention, I intended to live in Saudi Arabia, andthe Arabic language is spoken there. However this sudden change, I believe caused me to suffer a severe identity crises, which wasn’t visible until later on in my life.

Strangely enough, I discovered if you look up my given name, “Deborah”, in the book of names, it would tell you it is an old Hebrew name meaning the bee. Much of the Arabic language, is taken from Hebrew, and bee in Arabic is “deboorah”. Deborah or “deboorah”, it’s just pronounced differently. People don’t realize, but the name Deborah is actually an Arab name. There’s even a chapter in the Qur’an named after the bee. In this chapter God says the bee’s honey is a healing to mankind. So in my opinion, the name Deborah is actually a better Muslim name. Of course if I were to change my name today, I would choose a more spiritual name, inshaAllah, but I’ve been Maha for so long. All my friends, including my friends in Saudi Arabia, have always known me by that name. So the name just stuck!

My family was very understanding when I converted to Islam.   Although, they were a little nervous, because they knew I would most probably live in Saudi Arabia, and being so far away would make it difficult for them to help, if things went wrong. At times, they repeatedly tried to warn me of the problems I could face, if I were to have children.  However, they appreciated the change in my character.  They always felt, as long as I was living a good healthy life and was happy, they were happy, and wouldn’t interfere.

At nineteen years old, I had my first and only boy in California. When he reached the age of one year and eight months, we moved to Saudi Arabia. I lived in Makkah for about six months and because my mother-in-law lived near the Haram (House of God, and its surrounding area), I used to go there often. Therefore, Makkah was a familiar place to me.

 

Approximately thirteen years I lived in Saudi Arabia, and had five more children, all of them girls.  I believe I succeeded in adapting to the Saudi Arabian lifestyle, and I learned much about Islam.  I even learned to communicate in Arabic; mainly because I spent much time helping my children with their homework.  I acquired the knowledge of speaking conversational Arabic so well, because I had lighter skin, Saudi Arabians meeting me for the first time, usually assued, I was Egyptian. 

 

I have actually performed Hajj three times, but I only wrote about two of them in my story, because I was unable to remember any details about my third time.  I also performed Umrah many times. My ex-husband and I usually performed Ummra whenever we departed from Saudi Arabia, and upon our return. Not to mention, we tried to perform Umrah at the specified times Muslims are known to attain the most rewards.

 

Saudi Arabia is home to Mecca, so I believe it goes without saying Saudi Arabia has a special place where God is concerned. By the will of God, Saudi Arabia holds a very high status, compared to other countries in the world. It has the lowest crime rate, if not the lowest, then one of the lowest. The fact is, all the undesirable traits man demonstrates in life, are not visible in the Saudi Arabian lifestyle, such as drugs, teenage pregnancy and many others. Therefore, for fear of displeasing Allah, I would never dare make an effort to change the social structure in Saudi Arabia .

My ex-husband had a very controlling nature, and because I had basically a free spirit; after six children and a long marriage, we began having serious problems in our marriage.  It was difficult, for us to remain in the same house. I never wanted my children to be raised with psychological problems, due to witnessing hostility between their parents. However, raising my children in America without their father, was never a question in my mind, so I painfully realized, separating from my exhusband, meant separation from my children.

Over the years, many times I tried persuading him to let me stay in Saudi Arabia near my children after we divorced, but he refused.  My ex-husband was very insistent, either we live in a house together, or I return to America by myself.  At that time, I was very weak in my faith, so I knew the difficulty I would be facing in America, would be intensified without God on my side.
 

God tells us in the Qur’an, when someone leads a good life, worships and obeys Him, for His sake; He makes life easy for this person, and this person has peace and harmony in his life. 

92:5-7 “So he who gives (in charity) and fears (Allah), and (in all sincerity) testifies to the best. We will indeed make smooth for him the path to ease.”

 

 

In the year 1997, I painfully separated from my children and returned to America alone.  My ex-husband tried many ways to get me back, but God did not will this to happen.  Nothing happens without the will of God.  Everything good or bad we experience in our life, is from God.  God creates bad, as expiation for our sins, or as a learning experience, which is where the proverb  “Learn from your mistakes”, originated.

 

The way my life unfolded, reassures me of God’s presence, and His plan.  My objective in writing my story, is to make da’wa, and better peoples opinion of Islam.  I found when people understand something, they are less apt to be frightened of, or dislike it.  Anyone with belief in their heart, would love Islam!

2:112, “Nay—whoever submits his whole self to Allah (God) and is a doer of good—he will get his reward with his Lord; on such shall be no fear, nor shall they grieve.”
I explain Islam as I narrate the story of my life. I lived in Saudi Arabia for thirteen years, and I have six children by my former Saudi Arabian husband. One boy, who is the oldest, and he has five little sisters. I have lived in Makkah, and made Hajj and Umra. I made Hajj three times, and Umra many times. I describe the Haram and Madinah in detail, the rites of Hajj and the reason we perform them.  I traveled back and forth between Saudi Arabia and American, many times over the years and heard the concerns of both sides, so I knew what needed to be addressed in my book.

 
My son is attending the University in Sacramento, California near my family. Allah has blessed me to visit my girls, who are in Saudi Arabia three times, and insha’Allah, I will be able to go again.  We stay in touch, by computer, using the webcam, or by telephone whenever possible.
I would like to see Muslims start a movement to change Islam back to the way it was originally given to all of the Prophets, right down to the seal of the Prophets Muhammad (pbuh). It is a shame, many Muslims today, have allowed unorthodox thinking of Islam, by their actions!
Please help spread Islam by telling your friends and acquaintances about my story on this website!
                                The Final Analysis
People are often unreasonable and self-centered, forgive them anyway. If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway. What you spend years to build, someone could destroy overnight. Build anyway. The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow. Do good anyway. You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God; it never was between you and them anyway.   
(mypreciouschildrenmyplightmylifemystory.books.officelive.com/Interviews.aspx / 01.08.2011)

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